Sometimes I feel as though I could spend all day, everyday sleeping, and still be beyond exhuasted. Sadly, I do not have time to sleep during the day, and my body does not let me sleep well at night. I wonder how much longer I can keep running on empty. It amazes me what the human body can handle. These days I'm living off of diet coke and ibuprofen, the former to stay awake, and the latter to fend of the headaches caused by the former. At the very least I was finally able to transition to diet pop, otherwise I might be a thousand pounds by now. I have become afraid to drive, fearing that I will nod off. Which is bad, since I have had to drive such long distances so often lately. So, I load up on pop, eat lots of snacks to stay awake, take lots of pee breaks, blast my music, and constantly have the airconditioning on blowing directly at my face (yes, even in freezing weather) all in an effort to stay awake. So far, so good. But it makes already long trips so much longer when you have to stop every hour or so. I just have to have faith that this will get better someday, somehow . . .
